Make sense of 2011 in order to have a kick ass 2012

This post was inspired by Simone at Skinnydip – the one where I get all personal and shizz about 2011 in order to encourage you to do the same. Holy moly a lot happened this year; take stock & surprise yourself.

January: Did you sign onto new commitments for the right reasons?

My hot torrid love affair with blogging was still in the honeymoon stage. I had received and accepted a full-time job offer to manage relationships and do site analytics for a cable company’s online TV website (after 3 months of half ass searching) with Feb 1 start date.

I was terrified to go corporate again (the politics, limited responsibility etc) but thought the position was a step in the right direction (entertainment), without a sacrifice to benefits, pay and vacation.  11 months later I’m happy I took the leap instead of continuing to wait for “something better” but I am now getting bored.

I also accepted a volunteer role to manage marketing for an annual Entrepreneurial Conference – I didn’t really know what I was getting myself into.

February – April: What risks or mistakes did you make in the name of love?

I tried online dating again, went to my first gay bar, and ended up falling for the complete opposite of me. I learned that I am curious about hedonistic people and lifestyles. I learned I am attracted to boys who can dance, have charisma and kiss like Latin Lovers but that I can’t keep up (and don’t want to). I look forward to mature, nice guys with a naughty edge and playful spark.

I also finished my Teaching Assistant gig and used the money to pay for my Europe Trip.

May – June: Where did you travel in 2011 – would you change anything in retrospect?

I spent May and part of June heartbroken, even though logically my reaction didn’t make sense. I was tired of having false starts and Europe couldn’t have come at a better time – it refuelled me.

I had some independent and fun travel experiences in London and Portugal (nude bike ride anyone?) and crossed two more new countries off my list, with a plan to return to Portugal one day.

My sinus and stomach issues began to kick into high gear (dry cough lasted 9 months). When I got back from my trip I was forced to slow down.

July – August: How did you get over new or old heartbreak in 2011?

I found out my ONE BIG MAJOR EX of 4 years got engaged and I finally mourned the loss of our relationship, something I hadn’t let myself do when we actually broke up. I realized I was carrying around a lot of guilt over our ending and I finally began to recognize the lessons from our relationship.

I became closer with my best friend who was my rock during these 6 emotional months.  I also dipped my big toe into karaoke and other scary things.

September: Did you take your health into your own hands with a sense of urgency?

I insisted on an early appointment with an allergist only to discover that dust, mold, ragweed and dogs didn’t like me very much. I am now taking shots and feeling better. I did an unpleasant stomach test and realized nothing was majorly wrong with me, except for acid reflux (GERD) – yet another trait I have in common with Betty White’s demographic (pass the alka seltzer sonny).

I completed my many duties as Marketing Director for the conference and felt a weight lift. I learned I am far more action oriented when other people are counting on my output and that I let details and perfectionist tendencies slow me down and make me blue, which will affect my writing.

October: Did you focus on your goals, instead of someone else’s?

I decided to only commit to new things that align with my big picture goals.  After a short break, I started to refocus on screenwriting by spending time outlining the story, attending networking events, getting a writing partner and watching great movies like 50/50. Guys started falling from the sky into my lap (about time) at the end of the month.

November – December: Did you get stuck and ask for help?

I got swept away in a swirl of work and social commitments. I felt disappointed with my lack of writing progress. I read the War of Art which helped and started seeing a life coach and holistic nutritionist to continue to take care of myself (along with weekly yoga). You can’t achieve great things if your mind and body are out of sync.

I was finally treated like a lady after encountering yet another douche. My best friend told me she’s noticed I am more positive and go with the flow compared to a year ago which is amazing progress.

Out with the old 2011 and in with the new 2012

Out with the old, in with the new!

LOOKING FORWARD

In hindsight, 2011 was a year of discovery and passion. This blog helped me own up to my true self in a public way which I needed. I’m now refocusing for 2012 – a year that will be full of DISCIPLINE & COMMITMENT.

I still want risks, change and passion but I want to prove to myself I that can take action, finish what I start and make better choices for myself – even if it means foregoing a night of clubbing to stay home and write or sleep. That’s part of growing up y’all.

What word do you want 2012 to embody for you?

4 Responses to Make sense of 2011 in order to have a kick ass 2012

  1. Nikita says:

    WOW, can’t believe you started this blog a year ago, seems like forever since I’ve been on here to scope out your entries.

    None-the-less, great post on summation of 2011, here’s to a great start to 2012!

    🙂

    • Vanessa says:

      Hey Nikita – thanks so much for the comment and for checking back with the blog – I know the posting schedule is somewhat erratic! I hope you have an awesome 2012 – making goals or mental commitments really without expectation and just keeping an open mind and learning a lot!

  2. Vadim says:

    I want 2012 to be a year of action. I am sick and tired of talking about change without having the follow through. The biggest challenge will be to not only do, but continue doing!

    For example, i finally started my blog. I realised that my initial attempt was too grandiose, i tried to do too many things at once. I cut it down to just writing once a week about my thoughts on the state of the web. So far so good!

    Vadim

    P.S: You dont need to have Captcha enabled, its annoying. You can rely on the WP default plugin “Akismet”

    • Vanessa says:

      I can’t wait to meet up with you again and discuss our future dreams. I know you will do great things. I hate that captcha thing I feel like it added itself. It is now gone 🙂

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