This post was inspired by Simone at Skinnydip – the one where I get all personal and shizz about 2011 in order to encourage you to do the same. Holy moly a lot happened this year; take stock & surprise yourself.
January: Did you sign onto new commitments for the right reasons?
My hot torrid love affair with blogging was still in the honeymoon stage. I had received and accepted a full-time job offer to manage relationships and do site analytics for a cable company’s online TV website (after 3 months of half ass searching) with Feb 1 start date.
I was terrified to go corporate again (the politics, limited responsibility etc) but thought the position was a step in the right direction (entertainment), without a sacrifice to benefits, pay and vacation. 11 months later I’m happy I took the leap instead of continuing to wait for “something better” but I am now getting bored.
I also accepted a volunteer role to manage marketing for an annual Entrepreneurial Conference – I didn’t really know what I was getting myself into.
February – April: What risks or mistakes did you make in the name of love?
I tried online dating again, went to my first gay bar, and ended up falling for the complete opposite of me. I learned that I am curious about hedonistic people and lifestyles. I learned I am attracted to boys who can dance, have charisma and kiss like Latin Lovers but that I can’t keep up (and don’t want to). I look forward to mature, nice guys with a naughty edge and playful spark.
I also finished my Teaching Assistant gig and used the money to pay for my Europe Trip.
May – June: Where did you travel in 2011 – would you change anything in retrospect?
I spent May and part of June heartbroken, even though logically my reaction didn’t make sense. I was tired of having false starts and Europe couldn’t have come at a better time – it refuelled me.
My sinus and stomach issues began to kick into high gear (dry cough lasted 9 months). When I got back from my trip I was forced to slow down.
July – August: How did you get over new or old heartbreak in 2011?
I found out my ONE BIG MAJOR EX of 4 years got engaged and I finally mourned the loss of our relationship, something I hadn’t let myself do when we actually broke up. I realized I was carrying around a lot of guilt over our ending and I finally began to recognize the lessons from our relationship.
September: Did you take your health into your own hands with a sense of urgency?
I insisted on an early appointment with an allergist only to discover that dust, mold, ragweed and dogs didn’t like me very much. I am now taking shots and feeling better. I did an unpleasant stomach test and realized nothing was majorly wrong with me, except for acid reflux (GERD) – yet another trait I have in common with Betty White’s demographic (pass the alka seltzer sonny).
I completed my many duties as Marketing Director for the conference and felt a weight lift. I learned I am far more action oriented when other people are counting on my output and that I let details and perfectionist tendencies slow me down and make me blue, which will affect my writing.
October: Did you focus on your goals, instead of someone else’s?
I decided to only commit to new things that align with my big picture goals. After a short break, I started to refocus on screenwriting by spending time outlining the story, attending networking events, getting a writing partner and watching great movies like 50/50. Guys started falling from the sky into my lap (about time) at the end of the month.
November – December: Did you get stuck and ask for help?
I got swept away in a swirl of work and social commitments. I felt disappointed with my lack of writing progress. I read the War of Art which helped and started seeing a life coach and holistic nutritionist to continue to take care of myself (along with weekly yoga). You can’t achieve great things if your mind and body are out of sync.
I was finally treated like a lady after encountering yet another douche. My best friend told me she’s noticed I am more positive and go with the flow compared to a year ago which is amazing progress.
In hindsight, 2011 was a year of discovery and passion. This blog helped me own up to my true self in a public way which I needed. I’m now refocusing for 2012 – a year that will be full of DISCIPLINE & COMMITMENT.
I still want risks, change and passion but I want to prove to myself I that can take action, finish what I start and make better choices for myself – even if it means foregoing a night of clubbing to stay home and write or sleep. That’s part of growing up y’all.
What word do you want 2012 to embody for you?